What's with everything new????

I bought a set of new t-shirts and the look was so cool that I dragged it untill it grew onto me and I was compelled to go back to my old clothes... Got a new haircut and I fell so madly in love with it that I kept flaunting it and appreciating myself so much that I just got too used to it soon!!! Which in reference reminds me how a new relationship grows on you so deeply that you have no control over yourself!!
Over new shoes, new shirts, new hairstyles, new pants, new car, new bags, new chair(I guess you get the idea) new relationships are the ones that grow so passionately over the passing time.. The beauty of newness of a relationship being that eventhough you insist upon knowing each other thoroughly, you are so involved feeling good spending time with each other that you hardly pay attention to the details.. It's almost magical to be fortunate enough to find a relationship which indulges your complete being and takes total control over you and you just move around all happy and squeaky, fresh and minty , flying high and hardly noticing other people and things around you !!

These are days that you always remember with micro detailing ofclothes and situations and what he said after you guys kissed for the first and how totally sweapt off your feet did you feel after he gave you that long stare with a deep sigh following only to finish the prologue with you are gorgeous... No we never forget those days!!! And I cherish mine!!
My next blog's gonna be what exactly is love to me? Though I pretty
uch can summarize that already, it's my whole life and it's what I am as of now,,, all for you!!

It's a vicious Circle!!!!!

I tell myself all is going to be okay as I am informed that "x" told boss that I gossiped against him!!!!!
Boss confronts me and I clarify that gossips are generally group Activity and how can I be put in the spot !!!!!
I come out and confront people why put me in the spot???and "y" says "z" told me you said so ... so I ask "z"(as If I hadn't had enough in the boss's den of confrontations) so "z" asked "y" and in turn "y" asked I (as in me) and f***!!!now even the topic in concern is lost but at the cost of everyone getting disturbed!!! I hereby state to be very clear and transparent as has been my effort from the very beggining ! Forgive me as I apologise for being part of this vicious circle hence proving that you only end up insecure when indulged in office friendship!!!! It's easier to grow up rather than being neutral!!!!!


Cheers for all the good times before the insecurities began!!!!!

Its official...!

some joke cracked somewhere and all chip in for a laugh.... the little personal touch added for a better environment .... my little office had me and my boss loitering around the corners stacking up work and working our ass off to get it done with...our accountants sat behind in the next room...trying to figure what we keep laughing about... whatever little time we got we made jokes about the rest of the world assuming our selves to be obvious greater beings...!

yes officially, even though the corporate rule is to 'hate your boss'.. i never felt the same...

on the contrary, i felt an ownership...!

but people dynamics is something you learn to live with... and when you don't.. one ends up like me...!

as my collegue once quoted,'DTA- Don't Trust Anyone'!!! that quote crashed on my face when my boss, one-by-one took out topics of our lunch time gossip and after office discussions and threw on my face only what i had said...! hence proving that i was corrupt..! i cleared the confusion..

i relised my mstakes but a question hung in the air............!!!!

if people is what drives an organization, why is everyone only trying to cut the other's organizational life short??? why the factors like jealousy, vanity, lies and confusions such a major part of people dealings??? aren't things more fruitful when they are straight and out in the open??

why is everyone only looking for credit and waiting to snatch an opportunity to feel great at another's cost??

reading this you may feel why i behave as if i am so naive? but hell psychology, reverse psychology, people dynamics, relations have been subjects i have scored excellently at college and reading but i am a classic example for theoretical knowledge but no implication...!!

applaud for me...!!!!!

DECLARATION: my blog is where i vent out my frustration by sharing what i feel for the world , keeping in account that i think i am right in most situations.. believe in human tendencies and aggregate of my emotions is not what i am always, necessarily..!

IN LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN....!

6 years back, i heard the orchestra playing in the backgroud when i realised i was in love and wanted to be with him forever...and things took shape thereon... we got married... we had a son... we do things together and we also say 'i love you' to each other everyday... but somewhere i had stopped indulging in the orchestra playing in the background..like muted it to be busy in other routine like bringing up Neil(my son), doing other things like cooking, working....!!etc... lately, when my husband thought i was having an affair...he almost tripped ... we had a huge dialogue and reassessed the insecurity.. and believe me at a point i thought its all over... but the beauty of being in love is... it bounces back.. and man.. did it..!!!

so gracefully bounced back that now its better than new, all over again... i hear the orchestra....!!! and its playing such exciting tunes...!!!


ps: i don't know if this is viable to share coz its personal but am just too overwhelmed to not let the world know!

WAR ZONE---THE TRAFFIC ON THE WAY TO OFFICE..!

My head feels dizzy from the honking from the car behind...and my eyes tired with all the focus am trying to maintain on the bike in front so he doesnt leave his mark on my car..!the man chewing tobacco in the car beside me is trying his level best to push in his way before me..as if this was a race and nonetheless honking all the way....!!!!!
the lovebirds on the bike on my left are looking here and there and doing this and that ..now and then ..almost grabbing everyone's attention, and people rather than looking ahead for better traffic ettiquettes prefer looking at them and fantasizing their own love life...~~~! and 10 seconds before the signal opens...people start moving away...
i refuse to budge till i don't see green....so that leaves me and my disprin alone...because what follows is a series of non stop honking pestering me to move my car....!!! and some bikes who make their way from behind my car, stop by to pay their abuses for not moving...!!!! i mean.... whatever happened to traffic lights????!!!! then finally as we start moving as the light goes green, somebody from the other side of the road zooms away in front of you almost killing you, so that he saves time and doesnt have to waste his life, waiting on red signal...!!!by the time i park my car and walk out, i feel like a SURVIVOR... as if i have won the battle and made it to my destination...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First Date

Yea we all have some memories and when it comes to our “first” date, we have the mushiest of memories …only I got something strangely different…….

If I were the typical romantic gal, I would have enjoyed this café, the pink walls, the old wooden look, the round coffee bar, the mushy old man by the counter with a warm smile spread on his face, nodding now and then…It was the first time I was on an official date and was hardly 15 and I was highly agitated with the ambience…
I never could appreciate the colour pink much and only then hemant or something close to that(oops I am bad with names) offered to get get me strawberry shake, i mean WHAT??
I politely said I will prefer a coffee instead and guess what…? He comes back with two cups and I could see that the old man was grinning quite widely… I wondered why…
And BOOM!! the coffees had one heart in each with S and H(initials for my name and his, if you didn’t already guess , dud…!!) and the thing that would catch your eye was an arrow going through the coffee… I mean HELLO!!!??
I have met you like twice before this and agreed to come out on a date doesn’t mean I am head over heels in love with you…!!!!!!!!!
Anyhow, I couldn’t make myself even look into that cup rest alone drinking it, so I excused myself to go to the ladies room and ZUPPP..! I flew away on my two wheeler…
Never heard from the guy again, thank God for that…!!

MALE EGO!!

Yes, i do love bikes, i Fascinate on smoking, i do love hanging out with friends late in the evening, i make it a rule to pay for myself, i feel offended if someone questions my capabilities, i feel agitated if i am given advices, and yes i abuse a lot...A LOT!!!!but hey don't we all have a bit of male ego in us...

i still love gossip, love getting dressed, love shopping, love being complimented on my looks(but men do too), love being centre of attraction.. this piece of information to clear up doubts ,if any, that guys...NO AM NOT A WANNABE BOY...!!! am as feminine as i can be with a jist of male ego...

time out in the game of laziness...

crap! i just saw my last post was published on march 30..and lord am i lazy or what to not write no more since then...!!! apologies to the bunch of readers that i have..hmmm i have so many new things to share but all of them are on a prsonal level.. so i ll need time to generalise some and publish them coz i know no one is interested in the personal perspective,even though thats what its gonna be..:P
love all
somi

ps:ll surely come up something in a while and promise to publish something by evening...!cheers

DOWN THE BOOZE LANE

when we sat and drank yesterday evening and didnt stop till late after midnight,,,my heart went off for a stroll down memory lane..
mom always says no matter how much you hate a person,if once the person's been your drink mate,,you would bounce onto him with the first oppurtunity..
mom also says liquor is a weakness that she aint able to guage...
she also says, drink leads to most family problems...
hmm..
well i respect all of these things but i go back at once a booze mate, always a mate..:P
why me making such a deal outa being drunk is cause i got onto it after almost more than 18 months and whether you consider it or not, i consider it an achievemnet and gave myself the liberty to get tipped off by the sinful sparkling liquid..and lord...... heaven..
its a privelege to have good company to get high with and so i am priveleged to be married to a great booze mate and "blessed" to have friends who never misbehave after even the 5th glass down their throat...!!:D

having said that i raise a toast to all my booze mates and otherwise...
and with the risk of naming them,,,(please contact me asap if you need me to delete your name..:P)
at 16, a guy crazily in love with me arranged for a tincher full of liquor (a litre) and rups and me cracked up through out the night with hysterical laughs, hiccups, numbness and fits of giggles..!!!
and since then all my friends,tanvi,kshitij,anthony,jayant,pallavi, inna,rupa, anjali,kunal, candy, sam, vatsala,sameer,sonia,sandesh,khush, even the irritating darshini(the gal who peed on my bathroom floor and i ended up baby sitting her)rucha, bob, priya di, anand, rajesh manasie,'manoj and preeeti' whom i really miss,gaurang, dj nicky, richie,rahul,tapan,surbhi

, pranay, vijay, even amishi(wth)and above all bhai...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (a small mention for my in laws too..namoatter the differences, i enjoy your company too) HAVE UNDOUBTLY (EACH ONE OF YOU)LEFT ME WITH GOOD MEMORIES...
please forgive me if i have forgotton anyone's name... LET ME KNOW TOO,IF YOU WANNA
i havent mentioned FRANK coz he's too special for a mention..:P

even though the memories may have dazed, i thank you all for the companionship that was offered at that moment..hahahaha:P
CHEERS..!
and shivi i look forward to clinker glasses with you...:D

excellent SHOTS..!

some shots in the movies really make you admire the director..
the shot in 'mission kashmir' where the lil boy discovers the mask that sanjay dutt wore to kill his parents..the shot following that has such impact.. the boy wears the mask and is coloring sanjay dutt's photograph to identofy... if you see it closely the way the camera goes out and into focus is just amazing
also the shot in 'the village' where almost in the end the blind girl decides to go to the city to get medicines and the spastic guy wears the ghosts mask and is standing right next to her beside the tree, and the girl says' its all farse'..and is sweating frantically out of fear..!