Uncertainty

Sometimes I count my blessings
Other times I drown in fear
Hustling with ideals
Swinging around dirt
Skipping lanes easily
To find a shortcut
Sometimes I feel good
Other times I have doubts
Feeding the undesired
Sparing the sunshine
Running away from illusions
Some yours many mine
Some days are terrible
Other days sense prevails
I harbour myself to the moment
Letting the questions fade
I build a little shelter
And I ask for no rent
Sometimes I am amazed
Other days completely dazed
Why are my verses so long
Why do I feel unheard
If I am good you are too
But if you doubt I blow out
Some times I accept
Sometimes it's enough
Sometimes we go in circles
More like a cyclone