Ethically Unethical

People often blatantly
Shamelessly and selfishly
Turn green with envy
Pretending to be well wishers
Then when I scream
I am asked to calm down
And sheepishly questioned
Is there a deeper anger lying within!

No you brainless lost soul
Pretending to be naive
Your unethical ways
Have left me distorted
You stayed too close
I had let my guards done
Now the gates are bolted
With the keys hanging out

Come in or go away
I am okay with whatever it is
Let's be friends
Let's pretend to care for a little longer
Let's act like we have missed each other
And when we feel better
Let's not let each other know
That we will be fine without the other

Uncertainty

Sometimes I count my blessings
Other times I drown in fear
Hustling with ideals
Swinging around dirt
Skipping lanes easily
To find a shortcut
Sometimes I feel good
Other times I have doubts
Feeding the undesired
Sparing the sunshine
Running away from illusions
Some yours many mine
Some days are terrible
Other days sense prevails
I harbour myself to the moment
Letting the questions fade
I build a little shelter
And I ask for no rent
Sometimes I am amazed
Other days completely dazed
Why are my verses so long
Why do I feel unheard
If I am good you are too
But if you doubt I blow out
Some times I accept
Sometimes it's enough
Sometimes we go in circles
More like a cyclone

It's TIME

There comes a time
We are told often
When things will make sense
There comes a time
We make ourselves believe
When we would be free of pretence
There comes a time
That moment of realisation
That we keep waiting on
There comes a time
You put your guards up
To avoid damage from storms
There comes a time
Whether we like it or not
When we are called on our truth
There comes a time
When we sail into nothingness
Labouring for the fruits
That time shakes and moves us
That time needs us to be true
The time when the final verdict is set upon you

Storm after the calm #1

I believe in my boundaries
Like the ostrich's neck in the sand
I believe in your lies
Unless you change your stand

Easy to point a finger
Easier to smoulder in hurt
Easy to believe I deserved
The most honest encounters

The mirror is a river
My reflection deceives
People come so far
To only deal with what they perceive

Worry not my old friend
I tell myself often
There's yet a lot of life to live
Yet a trail of guilt to follow

Yet my frail mind to grow
Teething as my gums bleed
My tongue exhausted and restless
I walk around as the voices scream

And it goes on...

The cat hid the dead mouse 
The Dog dug his bone
The man made another excuse
And life goes on..
And life goes on
Sparing no remorse
We work towards maintaining
An illusion; a face of farce
And life goes on
The demons rising within
I told you I will be shattered
Like the pieces of this dream
And life goes on
Reflecting fresh memories
I told you I will be shattered
Like the pieces of this dream

it is what it is

Oh how easy it is
For life to seem unfair
We live in moments
Wandering here and there
Seeking comfort and peace
Quick to question and yet to believe
Giving trust a worthy place
Hoping to deserve it
Crawling with dreams
That never made any sense
Oh how easy it is
To be fooled and turn a blind eye
Oh how easy it is
To let go and feel lost
Oh how easy it is
To build illusions and ignore
What it really is!