DISCLAIMER: I LOVE YOU

When you took me to the roof top restaurant 6 years back

It was my birthday, the food was perfect, the background had playing our favorite track

I talked endlessly about how i had been and what i was doing

All this while without a word, with magic in your eyes, you went on staring.......!

Standing in your balcony, sipping old monk, we looked at the road below..

We talked about life and held each other, lost in the hour, 2 packs in a row......

i wanted you to say it, but you didn't utter a word...

i knew a better time would come for this to be heard..!

In broad daylight, we danced in the rain,

Splashing water on each other, we gave a damn of being sane..

Wrapped in towels , as we sipped tea, sitting by the bed

You told i looked beautiful with a towel wrapped over my head!!

We came back from the disco, and shared a glass of whiskey

You kept telling me i was high, when i wasn't even tipsy..

The radio played Bryan adams and you just took my hand..

Blew me out of my senses as you made me dance...!

The day I made you watch Titanic the very 5th time..

You kissed me on my forehead and begged this to be the last time..

I told you i wanted to share a story

and we went to the balcony

And as I spoke i knew the moment had come for you to know

My mind was relaxed and my heart was pumping and there was excitement in my toes

I said it softly first and ended up screaming till i had a sore throat

"I LOVE YOU" sounds simple, how come had the power to make my heart float?

You pulled me in your arms and you softly put your lips on mine

But more than the moment, the heart was swelled to an unbelievable size...!

With tears in your eyes, you laughed and laughed

As you bow your head, i knew how wonderful it is to be in LOVE...........!

DEDICATED TO FRANCIS D'CUNHA, THE BESTEST HUSBAND IN THE ENTIRE WORLD!

MMMMMWAH MY BABY.. I LOVE YOU

THE IRON HORSE...I LOVE!

THE HARLEY DAVIDSON...

the BEAUTIFUL THUNDERBIRD TWINSPARK...MEAN MACHINE!!!!

What on this freaking EARTH is LOVE????!!!

what is love? baby don't hurt me ,don't hurt me, no more...!!;)
that's the first thing that pops in my mind the moment i think of penning down my great thoughts over LOVE...hahaha
Great or not i don't care, one thing's for sure,,,,every single living human and even dead, has/had a say on it...! everyone knows what love is.. and yet there's a different perception to all the same...!

you don't love me anymore..! why do you say that? Coz you don't call me as many times, you don't buy me gifts, you don't pamper me as muuch,. Oh well thats not because i don't love you, thats only coz we have known each other long enough to stop acting nuts...! Oh so now you telling me that am not worth all that anymore????! NO i never said that!!! You have just simply taken me for granted...!!!!

how many goddamned times have we heard it and ......gone through it ourselves???
is it a matter of wanting to overtly give yourself to another? or is to forget the "self" and indulge in another? is it wanting to be together all the time? or is to schedule your whole life in such a way that "that the other one" is included in EVERYTHING YOU DO?????

i went to college after i got married to Frank, and the first day of my college, Frank tells me, ' you are very young, make an identity for yourself, don't impose on people that you are a wife, they don't even need to know...'
Randomly, just randomly, this pops in to my mind everytime i think of being in love...

coming back to the point... when you love and you let go off your "self", there's not much left to love off you..! think of that... being taken for granted is the term we use most commonly but have we evr given a thought to how we are only take for granted when we give that oppurtunity....? it might not be wise, but think about it....

love is a state of self, something very close to knowing what you are and what you are capable of... only then can you know how to give....

A person trying to create an identity out of being someone's husband/wife or Girl/boyfriend, eventually ends up growing on that one... and then... these are the people who gradually start the dialogue of being taken advantage of, or being taken for granted.....

while all these utterly random thoughts come into my mind and i throw one after another at you, have you concluded what i want to say...?
for me....
love is a passion of a man/woman who knows the self and respects 100 % of it. and then is it possible(according to me....saumya Das D'cunha) to love someone and not loose yourself so you erase the basic identity off you. You gotto loose yourself in the "LOVE" ever so powerful, but only a man full of respect for the self can sustain it long enough... be assured against infidelity, be confident against increasing weight, be conscious of giving full respect and being stable enough to let go off the thing happened a decade ago... To love is to grow together,,, not only in a romantic relationship, in a parent-child, in a friendly one, in every aspect of love, to give with knowledge of knowing that what you are giving is worth it, is what counts... and that my friends is the end of my utter vague, randomly scattered thoughts...
love you all..
mmmmwah!
Somi